My greatest concern in life is to be a Christian. By this I do not mean, to make sure that I am neither Muslim nor Jew; what I mean is that I want to be like Christ. And if I cannot always be like him (yet), my deepest longing is to become like him. I want to be like him in my thinking, in my behavior, in my words, and in every other thing that I represent.
This is more than a full-time job. It starts the moment I open my eyes in the morning and it goes beyond the moment I fall asleep. God can reach me even in the nights. He can speak to me in a dream or in a vision or he can wake me up in order to tell me something or to remind me of things I need to be reminded of.
I am blessed with some believing friends, and they pray for me on a regular basis. They often tell me that they pray for "openings" to share the gospel. I always ask them to pray that I will never fail to be a Christian. I do not have to be "successful," not even in preaching or in teaching or in concern for others. God will measure my "success" only by how much I am like Jesus.
Jesus, Beloved of my soul, may I never fail you. Without you this is "a mission impossible." But with you my thinking may become pure, my behavior humble; and through your spirit I will gain wisdom to make the right decisions. Grant that I may be like you. I do not ask for more. This is my longing, my call, and my goal for life. You know that I love you.
Make me like you, you and only you, in everything, in all I do, today, for you – as you, Jesus.